It’s official. I took my very last birth control pill on Friday night. I realized that I have been taking them non-stop for 9 years. I remember the very first one I took because I was unsure about starting them, and I know I will remember taking the very last one…probably because I have mixed feelings.

I’m scared. This marks a whole new phase in our lives and it’s weird to be facing it head on. As someone who is an anxious person by nature, I battle the fear of the unknown all the time, I like having control (when control can be had). I don’t know what is going to happen. On one hand I am afraid I will get pregnant, which sets off a whole other wave of anxiety. And on the other hand, I’m afraid I will never get pregnant.

Just kind of confused…