NaNoWriMo starts on Sunday. That leaves me only four more days (counting today) to finish prepping for this challenge. I’m getting nervous and I’m not exactly sure why. OK, so I’m afraid of “failing” – not making it to at least 50,000 words. I’m also afraid of getting one-third of the way into the novel and then freezing, having absolutely no idea what should happen next.

I haven’t written anything in a really, really long time and I’m worried that I’m going to be rusty. Then I start thinking about all the little details that I still need to figure out. Like what the heck does one of my main characters do for a living? And how much do I need to know about that profession before I start writing? I know it doesn’t sound like a bg deal, but it makes a difference. I don’t want to be in the middle of this when I decide what his job is and then have no clue about the logistics of it all – what kind of work schedules do they have? How much would he earn (which affects what kind of lifestyle he has)?

I’m feeling overwhelmed by all the details and the very little time I have left. Why the hell did I even agree to try this? What on earth possessed me to try to write a novel in 30 days? How can I get this done while working full-time and dealing with all the other aspects of my regular life?

I want to win the challenge. I’m afraid that if I don’t make it to 50,000 I’m just going to give up. This challenge is giving me the opportunity to finish something on that big ol’ to-do list of life that some of us have.

Tonight is going to consist of finishing up our Halloween costumes and then I hope to go home and get more work done. I tried last night, but Griffin had other ideas.

Four more days.